Introspection

I sit still…
In the apparent safety of my car’s interior…
The cool air gushing from the grills of its air-conditioner
With a dampened hiss, perhaps of protest
Comforting me with an obligation…

The tinted glasses hugging my eyes
Filtering off ‘unwanted’ rays from the scorching sun
Oblivious to myself,
And the numerous cars raging past (as if there is no tomorrow)
I sit still, in the car
Taking me to my destiny!

From the depths of my mind
A voice awakens me...
Of concern and inquisition
Echoing in the emptiness of my ears
“What makes you YOU…?”

Mind dilates with the urge to decipher
Wide eyes searching with greed to behold
Ears listening anxiously to absorb…
The clues that may give away...
The answer to my quest…

Thoughts swirl inwards,
Extending, expanding, wandering and searching…
Through the alleys I have walked
Through moments I have breathed
Through the days that I have lived
Through the scenes I have seen, and
The sounds I have heard
And the wisdom my senses has accumulated

As my mind heaves
In the labor of this intercourse
Of mind and thought
Of time and space…
Cold realization precipitates
Heavy beads of contempt

Sighing deeply
As if to revitalize..
Shaking my head
As if to dispel the ill thoughts
Blinking to contain bewilderment

In sheer disbelief..
Do I utter this to myself

I know not…
What makes me ME....!!!